||[Jul. 4th, 2005|09:27 pm]
|||||::ali speaking:: look fireworks||]|
its haunting, the questions in your eyes. and the answers awaited.... but in the end even they are still unknown. one word, one touch, one single little lifeless movement and everything could be over. blink? i dare not. because even in that second you could be gone....::nervous::... what is this? this questioning you have brought upon me. ANSWERS even though i know them, they still seem to be unknown. its the lack of words that can not define the single most important or even smallest question asked. ::quick reply:: dont know wut to say so dont say anything. ::still waiting:: just say nothing. even "i dont know" has a million meanings, [like the color black it takes the color of those we can not see.] answers take longer to say then questions. ::TRUST:: it seems like you dont. ::FEELINGS:: they are hard to express. [its like the first time taking a step you dont know how so you wiggle and wobble and fall but eventually you learn.] see i dont know this. IM SORRY. does it cut it? no i guess not. even words can hurt. ::stand strong::......not around you. ::FALL::.... its what i do. ::LOVE:: even i dont understand it. i only know it in the friendly way and thats how i use it. EVEN WITH YOU. how do you know when i love you the unfriendly way? ::IM IN LOVE WITH YOU:: thats how. ::DROKE::.......(i hate you}. well thats the meaning to me. ::play with my hair::... thats how you calm me down. ::hold me tight::.. thats how you keep me forever. ::kiss my lips::... that how you know my feelings. ::look into my eyes::... thats how you find the truth. ::get me drunk::... thats how you get what you want. ::say some hurtfull words::.......thats how you lose me forever, but not really. i will still be there. ::BROKEN::...... and this time i wont bother picking up the pieces. ::confused?::.... so am i.